walking through hallways 

opening doors

i didn't know there were

losing direction 

leaving my skin

i didn't know I could

looking for something

i don't know,

i lost it long ago

finding these fragments

these mirrors of me,

I didn't know there were


in the corners


all the piles of all of my forgotten memories

hides a child


my only friend

became the monster

who was chasing after me

with eyes like mirrors

reflecting scenes

of all the times that I was horrified 

of losing everything

and words like ripples


all my fears about my future 

that to this day are haunting me


is there any way out of here?



picked up a stone and threw it through the window

shattered glass made an open threshold

i escaped like a wild animal

broken free to roam 


all my life I've been waiting for this

everything's been pointing to this

my suspicions convinced it was coming to this 

everything's been pointing to this

all my life, I've been waiting for this

there's no going back now


someone somewhere I'll never know

is singing a song and feeling the wind blow

something somewhere is waiting to be fixed

something somewhere will always be missed

some things are too wild to tame 

a storm or a stillness

a calm or quickness

a feeling too fearless to fade

some things are to wild to name

the feeling is near but the words they are far

i've never been as free as I feel now 

there's no going back now

i only know all I know, 

all i know



the hill climbs high 

and on and on

the walkway winds 

through danger

to do no harm


the journey long

that longs for love

and loves the loss

of giving up to find my heart

is always home

always love

always one

one with all


when i look back will i own it

when i find it will i show it

when i have it will i hold it

will i let go of it


forward on, forward still

never stopping, never will

no i never will



blowing out this candle 

the glowing heart still burns

while memories slowly dancing

float away for good

red fades out to black

the ocean turns to stone

and then I close my eyes

and then they open up

seeing shadows stand in line

like soldiers waging war

but knowing all their lives

will go up like smoke


some moments break the dark 

even dignify its worth

some moments can get lost

and never come back home

some moments are confused,

some misunderstood

each day is a fire

each blessing and each curse


melting wax traps the ash

never to return

redefined by chance

these stories will be heard

consequence is clear

but chaos blurs the song

love be light to me

shining through the fog



we're all fire underwater 

oceans in the air

countless puzzle pieces 

wondering why we're here

we barely move an inch 

but we're keeping track of miles

we're the same face beneath our masks 

but we're tricked by our disguises 


we're swimming deep within it 

the surface out of sight

the floor descends beneath us

we're swimming through the sky

when your body says goodnight 

i won't drown within the fear

even though you'll lose your breath 

remember you will remain here


in an echo

in a glimpse

in the moment i can't miss

in the sweet paralysis

in the exit and entrance

in the touch of something strange

in a whisper of the name

in explosions in myself

in the place i got lost

was the place i found myself

was the place where i found out

every garden is a grave

every teardrop a wave

every wave is an ocean

every ocean is a breath

and everyone 

is tethered

by breath



wandering down the crooked road 

i saw the spirit like a dove

she sang a song I'd not yet heard

she called me out to see the world 

what are you looking for


i wonder when the time will come

i pray for fire like the dawn

to burn away my coward thoughts

until I find my child heart

because i saw all my hopes get crushed

beneath the weight of wickedness

so blow the ashes till they're lost 

unearth the treasures i forgot

what am I living for


I wonder when my time will come


what am I dying for

what am I living for

what am I waiting for

what am I looking for



the sun upon my back

the wind that pushes me

the shade that cools me down

the whisper in my ear

the aching in my bones

the thirst unsatisfied

the valley where I start

the mountain yet to climb


wherever I may go

i am home


the moment of relief

the fire in the dark

the salt within my tears

the light that wakes me up

the unknown unexplored

the stars that guide my way

the all within it all

the wild path unpaved


love keeps the door open

for my leaving and arriving home



there’s a world beneath the oceans veil

full of stranger darkness shining there

cause its all it is as it should be

without the touch of humanity

there is more above beyond our shore

in all directions the empty grows

there’s nothing else

like an ocean


countless possibilities in front of me

wondering why the waves do not repeat

so i give up and give in

falling and rising with the ocean


there is nothing else 

let me go

to the ocean



some may say I've made a mess

well I would not object

some may say I've watered down

well I didn't like the taste

some may say I've gone too far

well walk a mile with me

i guess you'll have to make it two

and maybe more than three


some may say I've got it wrong

well you keep doing right

some may say I've lost my mind

i did to save my life

some may say I've been deceived

but why is there such peace

in letting go of heavy loads

and stepping out from shadows

and tearing down the temples

that demons disguised

some may say I've got it wrong

well you keep doing right

narrow is the winding road

that takes and gives us life



i cannot fall asleep

but I’m still dreaming

staring at the ceiling

tangled in the sheets

the walls are closing in

is there any way out of here


restless peace

will not let me sleep

restless peace

will not let me be

anything but free

making my heart beat


i see sunlight

peeking past the mountains

burning night away

i cannot wait

to get out of here

is there anyway out of here